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A Life of Anger

O.K.  I’m taking a short break from my schedule-making series to talk about something that impacted me yesterday morning.  However, I will not be breaking from the manly theme Bill desires.  I’ll prove it later on.

A couple of years ago, a good friend of mine told me that she was still angry with me about a sin I had committed against her almost 2 1/2 years before.  I was shocked that someone could hold a grudge for that long, but then I began realizing that my heart is just as black in the same area.  You can see a post referring to some of my struggles here.  I began looking closely at my friend and realized that although she is a believer, she is a woman with little joy.  She becomes bitter and angry easily and talks about things and people that bother her for long periods of time.  It is much easier for her to see others’ sins than her own, so she has never dealt with this heart issue.  Sadly, she seems to be full of resentment about life and lacking in contentment.  As I examined myself, I saw that I was headed down the same road and that I needed much grace to heal me from this disease of hate.  So, I began praying for the grace needed, looking wherever I could for wisdom from others and meditating on scripture about anger.

I am currently reading through Life As a Vapor by John Piper, a man (see–manly 😉 ), and yesterday he had these words:

Remember that God will vindicate your just cause and settle all accounts better than you could.  Either your offender will pay in hell, or Christ has paid for him.  Your payback would be either double jeopardy or an offense to the cross.  “Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave it to the wrath of God, for it is written, ‘Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord'” (Romans 12:19).  “When he was reviled, he did not revile in return; when he suffered, he did not threaten, but continued entrusting [his cause] to him who judges justly” (1 Peter 2:23).”

How that convicted me!  There are many passages that speak against the sin of anger, but I had never thought about it quite like that.  I should be sad, not angry, when unbelievers sin against me because I know what anguish they will one day face.  And when a believer sins against me, I have no right to be angry because Christ has already covered the offense as He has all of mine.  How sinful and ugly my heart is to think I have a right to hold a grudge toward anyone!  But how righteous and beautiful God is because he is just, merciful, and sovereign!

P.S.  Make sure to read Bill’s funny blog below. 🙂



The Problem of Unforgiveness

Bill has badgered me enough, so I am finally posting my first ever blog (something I made fun of when I first heard of them).  Though Bill says there doesn’t seem to be much point in posting if no one is reading, I say that it will serve us and our family by giving us opportunities to post how God has been working in our lives and look back later so we can have even more reason to praise Him for His goodness and grace.

I keep wondering what to post on, so I think I will probably just post on what is going on in my heart from day to day (and probably some random silliness from time to time).  Lately I have been dealing with the subject of unforgiveness.  I just finished a 7 month Inductive study of Genesis and was in awe of the work God did in Joseph’s life.  The forgiveness he gave his brothers was impossible apart from grace.  Because I usually don’t want to rely on grace, I am realizing how much bitterness I have in my heart because I can’t seem to forgive small things people have done in the past (sometimes way past).  I have seen too often the hardness that comes in people’s lives from an unforgiving heart, and I see the ugly reflection I give of Christ each time I am embittered.

Something else I have realized is that repentance is more than feeling sorry.  It is putting off the sin and putting on righteousness.  This kind of sin isn’t always an easy fix because it’s not like a T.V. addiction where you can do tangible things to take away the temptation.  This is simply a heart problem, so if anyone has practical suggestions on how to tackle this sin (besides the most important solution—prayer and reliance on God’s mercies), I would very much appreciate it.  I also covet your prayers in this area.