Bill has badgered me enough, so I am finally posting my first ever blog (something I made fun of when I first heard of them). Though Bill says there doesn’t seem to be much point in posting if no one is reading, I say that it will serve us and our family by giving us opportunities to post how God has been working in our lives and look back later so we can have even more reason to praise Him for His goodness and grace.
I keep wondering what to post on, so I think I will probably just post on what is going on in my heart from day to day (and probably some random silliness from time to time). Lately I have been dealing with the subject of unforgiveness. I just finished a 7 month Inductive study of Genesis and was in awe of the work God did in Joseph’s life. The forgiveness he gave his brothers was impossible apart from grace. Because I usually don’t want to rely on grace, I am realizing how much bitterness I have in my heart because I can’t seem to forgive small things people have done in the past (sometimes way past). I have seen too often the hardness that comes in people’s lives from an unforgiving heart, and I see the ugly reflection I give of Christ each time I am embittered.
Something else I have realized is that repentance is more than feeling sorry. It is putting off the sin and putting on righteousness. This kind of sin isn’t always an easy fix because it’s not like a T.V. addiction where you can do tangible things to take away the temptation. This is simply a heart problem, so if anyone has practical suggestions on how to tackle this sin (besides the most important solution—prayer and reliance on God’s mercies), I would very much appreciate it. I also covet your prayers in this area.